Kinda like this song...tells me a lot of things about the past. But life moves on and I'm kinda happy with how fulfilling things are now...in fact, very happy!
Take a Bow - Rihanna
How 'bout a round of applause? Standin' ovation Oh...yeah yeah yeah yeah
You look so dumb right now Standin' outside my house Tryin' to apologize You're so ugly when you cry (Please) Just cut it out
Don't tell me you're sorry 'cos you're not Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show You really had me goin' But now it's time to go Curtains finally closin' That was quite a show Very entertainin' But it's over now Go on and take a bow
Grab your clothes and get gone (You better hurry up) Before the sprinklers come on Talkin' 'bout: Girl, I love you you're the one... This just looks like a rerun (Please) What else is on?
And don't tell me you're sorry 'cos you're not Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show You really had me goin' But now it's time to go Curtains finally closin' That was quite a show Very entertainin' But it's over now Go on and take a bow
And the award for the best liar goes to you For makin' me believe That you could be Faithful to me Let's hear your speech oh...
How 'bout a round of applause? Standin' ovation...
But you put on quite a show You really had me goin' But now it's time to go Curtains finally closin' That was quite a show Very entertainin' But it's over now Go on and take a bow
But it's over now...
Love is a show meant for two...
12:58
Hot Passionate Sex in the City?
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Opps...I meant Sex and the City. It's a wonderful show and with a wonderful person, it became a perfect show. Guess I owe Victor once; maybe not 'cos Vicky you didn't hand me his number! Thanks for making the night so perfect...the walk through the swamp...the beer together on the tanning bench at the beach under the starry sky...the walk under the bridge back home! It's been a long time since I went on such a nice stroll...
Humans and dolphins are the only 2 species that have sex for leisure? How sad the other species didn't enjoy it!
Friday, May 30, 200812:02
Just keeps getting fatter...
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I heard that they came up with a new Popeye's outlet at the Singapore flyer! And it's been like 2 years since I last munched on my last piece of Popeye's biscuit and I was dying for that next bite so I head down to the Singapore flyer with a friend after that hot afternoon swim!
The regular two piece chicken with Cajun fries and coleslaw makes a happy Sam!
Opps...getting fat!
So Popeye's doesn't do spinach?
The flyer doesn't look as flimsy as it seems closeup. On the contrary I find it majestic!
The best part about the whole flyer is that there is this garden park in the center of the facility. Kinda makes the whole place look greener and more spacious! It's like a 'lil urban escape...maybe like a nano-Central Park?
Lushy bushy...greenery!
A flyer shuttle calling port...
...sponsored by Yakult!
Later that night it's kinda like another big feast for me! Teppanyaki at Xiaotian's hall! We were expecting more people but thanks to Andrew for pangseh-ing us and ha...Iris went out of contact before dinner started. But as if I minded when I have more food for myself, Xiaotian right?
Food gahore!
It's zi-zizzling hot on the pan...and where's the ant?
My part time girlfriend and her boyfriend!
Oh yah this lucky girl here got her bf to get her a Wii console for her birthday and sorry we haven't got you your Crumpler bag! Lalalala and don't blame us...blame Crumpler for going out of stocks on those messenger bags!
We just couldn't stop laughing at those silly rabbids...
Children - get awesomely excited over Wii controllers.
This sweet 'lil feline here is Prince! Xiaotian's baby boy!
Oh and it's 4 weeks into the holidays and I've been back in school every single day to get busy with lab work! Oh...finally thought it would be great to let everyone see the place I work in this vacation!
Mutagenic? There's where Ninja turtles were made of?
...just in case you people wonder how it looks inside the white building labeled School of Chemical and Biomedical Engineering in NTU.
I think I have the neatest work bench...the next neater one would be an empty bench!
MSN station!
Life is only as colorful as you wish to paint it!
Tuesday, May 27, 200816:18
Oh God...I need a sex change!
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You Inner Gender is Female
You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you.
You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations.
You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves.
You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.
Opps...does it mean that I needa go for a sex change? I think these few days I'm insanely happy. I'm not really sure why but I don't get bothered so easily. Maybe I'm starting to see the sunshine beyond the clouds. And I think I'm starting to get a bit irritating to some of my friends by saying lalalala all the time!
Ha...I just saw your blog and I have no idea what are you trying to say! But I still hope you'll give me a chance...
To go with the flow or to be in control?
Monday, May 26, 200811:45
Nobody Knows It but Me - Babyface
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Nobody Knows It but Me - Babyface
I pretended I'm glad you went away These four walls closin' more every day And I'm dying inside And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show The pain is real even if nobody knows Now I'm cryin' inside And nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say The things I needed to say How could I let my angel get away Now my world is just tumblin' down I can see it so clearly But you're nowhere around
The nights are lonely The days are so sad And I just keep thinkin' about The love that we had And I'm missin' you And nobody knows it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two Now I'm nobody without someone like you I'm tremblin' inside, and nobody knows it but me I lie awake, its a quarter past three I'm screamin' at night As if I thought you'd hear me Yeah my heart is callin' you And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get You could ask my heart But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart A million words couldn't say just how I feel A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still
The nights are lonely The days are so sad And I just keep thinkin' about The love that we had And I'm missin' you And nobody knows it but me
Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the dusty road Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go I'm gonna unload my heart And hope you come back to me Said when the nights are lonely...
Trying to get used to the lonely nights...
11:25
It's all over
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I think running into you was a bad mistake. Yes, I can't deny I miss you. You know. When I keep everything. But you don't always have to pry open my wound. I did call last night to check if you're back safely. But that doesn't mean I care for you more than a friend. You have Jared. You can't have 2 guys at one time. You know you can love many but you've made a choice. Why should I fight for you? I lost the reason. The reason to fight for you...
Yes, the times we had together was marvelous. The times clubbing together on podium when people refer to us as cute couple. The Ubin trip with the NTU guys and your superman stunt. The White Christmas party and together cooking for the party. The Christmas countdown at Orchard and the 3 roses. The New Year cum First Month Cycling trip and the resolution we made at the back of the airport: it was you who told me that you wanted to come back year after year to renew our relationship. The Valentine's Day we spent together at my place and the pebble you gave me...all of them suddenly don't feel precious to me anymore. Especially the look you gave me that night you french kissed my friend right in front of me. The night I rushed down to the pub when you friend called to tell me you were screwing everyone of them up. That clubbing incident you told my friend to do you know what...
You had been given ample chances. Ample chances to hold me tight and tell me that you do love me, but you have to let me go. You don't need to say sorry for those things you have done now. You don't have to say you didn't cherish me back then...
If it were a month ago, I would have cried and softened up...I have moved on and you have a new boyfriend, so quit saying that I still want us back. Please, we wouldn't be able to move on this way. And sadly to say, I'm learning to love myself more. I'm getting more selfish. 'Cos I don't want to get hurt anymore. And I already have interest in someone else...
...so please just let us stay in the past...
It's a pain that wouldn't last...just hang on!
Saturday, May 24, 200801:20
Friends are what you need most!
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Alan, it's been really a long long while since I last met you. I think it's almost 2 years right? And I'm really sorry 'cos of my exams, I couldn't make it for your birthday earlier last month. I'm really sorry. Despite all the missed outings and all, you are still so willing to listen to me really touched me a lot!
Most of us are in this mad rushing to get attached and most of us always get attached before we know each other well enough. Look at me and Nicholas. Look at me and Thad. Yes there were happy moments. But major part of the relationship was shrouded with unhappiness and quarrels. So many things I have given up to pave way for the relationship. I was foolish. Now, I just wanna go out and make friends. Know these people well. If so happens that we end up a couple, then just be it. I'm tired of making new friends. There's no end to it I figured out. So now, I just wanna use all my time to know all my friends better and treat everyone better. It's not going to be easy in this superficial world but I guess I could learn.
Alan, thanks for guiding me through my life for my past few years. I really don't talk to you much these days. But each time I talk to you, you impart so much wisdom to me. I'm getting old. Like you too. I'm starting to get tired to chase a romance like what I was told in fairy tales. It's time to get realistic...
Thanks Xiaotian, my dearest part time girlfriend, for allowing me to pop by your bunk during my long waits between experiments and letting me play with Prince. Oh...where are the pictures of your birthday party? I can't wait to show off the castle cake! Lalalala...
Oh yah, by the way, Indiana Jones isn't a superb movie; comparable with the previous installments. Not really a must catch but it's still great! I won't spoil the movie here so why not just head down to the theater if you're bored.
Friends: they are the treasures of life!
Thursday, May 22, 200809:31
I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking for - U2
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That's the song chosen for David Cook for his last round in American Idol! I found the lyrics quite meaningful...
I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking for - U2
I have climbed highest mountains I have run through the fields Only to be with you Only to be with you I have run I have crawled I have scaled these city walls These city walls Only to be with you
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I have kissed honey lips Felt the healing fingertips It burned like a fire This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongues of angels I have held the hand of a devil It was warm in the night I was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I believe in the Kingdom Come When all the colors will bleed into one Bleed into one Well, yes I'm still running
You broke the bonds And you loosened the chains Carried the cross Of all my shame All my shame You know I believe it
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
Maybe certain things are not meant to be found? But discovered?
Wednesday, May 21, 200821:30
Finally a break out...
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Oh my flu broke out into a full blown one...a lot of things have happened in my life recently. I was thrown into the shit hole I got out of and I think I've finally got out of it again. I mean no one's at fault when both parties are feeling this way...
I have been back in school for my research program almost every single day for the past 3 weeks and on weekends I have tuition. My life only revolves around work these days until I am so damn tired of it. So I think it's good I take 2 days off to rest and recover from my flu and as well as a break to escape from work!
Rest...rest well!
Tuesday, May 20, 200814:39
Say It Again - Marié Digby
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Say It Again - Marié Digby
The thing about love Is i never saw it coming It kinda crept up and took me by surprise And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering Is this true, I want to hear it one more time
Move in a little closer Take it to a whisper Just a little louder
Say it again for me 'Cos I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love Say it again
Thing about you is you know just how to get me You talk about us like there’s no end in sight The thing about me is that I really want to let you Open that door and walk into my life
Move in a little closer Take it to a whisper Just a little louder
Say it again for me 'Cos I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love
And it feels like it's the first time That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain And never in my whole life Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name
Say it again for me 'Cos I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love Say it again
When you tell me you're in love... Say it again oh...
10:20
The concept of time...
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Woo...I'm back in lab on another day of my mid year vacation. Boring and I really hope this time round my experiment would get results. Time is running out and the report has to be in on my prof's desk by last day of June...that's really not a lot of time left for me! Must work harder and pray harder!
I am all along a very efficient person. Time never runs short for me! I always seem to have so much time my ptgf calls me Superman 'cos I have never had nothing beyond due date. But these days I'm starting to lose track of time...I don't know if forgetting to wear watch these few days is a symbol of losing track of time.
I guess I'm still young and love is something that takes a lot of time to build...suddenly, I feel stupid that I'm always in search of it and in search of it fast! Maybe that's my efficiency at work...yah, maybe they are all right! I'm so engross in getting things right all the time and fast, I try to make love happens the same way too! Maybe I should start learning to devote more of my free time to do other things that I like and stop dwelling on getting love right and fast...you know I still like you and I'll wait!
Time and tide waits for no one? What about through incidents, we learn...
Monday, May 19, 200811:53
Chiseled to be stronger?
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Oh yah it's been a long long while since I last blogged. A really long while and there are 101 things that I wanna say...
Been not very good! Had the second relationship of my life. Thought it's going to be a life long one but it just turned out as short lived as the previous one...and I can't help to be skeptical about promises! Promise of a future together...maybe like what everyone says: promises are made to be broken!
Oh yah...Say it Again by Marie Digby is a pretty nice song! I wonder if I could ever find that someone who would never be tired to say: I love you all day long...
Sometimes we do not treasure what we have until it's lost!
