This is a song by Sinhuey for the 10 pm show on Channel U called Perfect Cut...
过去的批评嘲讽 (Let it go, let it go)
过去的轻蔑冷落 (Let it go, let it go)
有些人口不饶人
却忘了瞧瞧自己 又有什么资格
时刻都善良待人 (Let's move on, let's move on)
时刻都做好本分 (Let's move on, let's move on)
有些人心思浅薄
绝不是宽容 自暴自弃的理由
也许 确实也受过言语打击
也许 从来也没什么好际遇
千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里
我们又不会妨碍这世界继续美丽
我知道我变漂亮了 (我知道我被注意了)
曾难过 曾失落 微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流
我知道我变漂亮了 (我知道我也豁达了)
不自卑 不埋怨 就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美 迷住每个人的眼
时刻都善良待人 (Let's move on, let's move on)
时刻都做好本分 (Let's move on, let's move on)
有些人心思浅薄
绝不是宽容 自暴自弃的理由
也许 想说的话总埋在心底
也许 想要的爱可望而不可及
竭尽全力争取 幸福会看到你
大声说 你的真心全世界最动听
我知道我变漂亮了 (我知道我被注意了)
曾难过 曾失落 微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流
我知道我变漂亮了 (我知道我也豁达了)
不自卑 不埋怨 就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美 迷住每个人的眼
一个两个不懂 丑小鸭变天鹅啊
需要时间比较多
走过了伤痛才看得更通透
不到最后不会懂命运安排了什么
我知道我变漂亮了 (我变漂亮了)
曾难过 曾失落 微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流
我知道我变漂亮了 (我知道我也豁达了)
不自卑 不埋怨 就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美 迷住每个人的眼
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美 迷住每个人的眼
Recently, I've got to make another close friend. Ha...this guy he treated me to cakes at Cedele 'cos he felt sad for those bottles of liquor that I broke. Technically, I didn't break them 'cos they fell off the shelf. He told me that he noticed my profile a while back but he never wanted to send me a message. He added that he felt that I was hot and was afraid that I didn't want to make friends with him. Humph 'cos that set me wondering since when have I been so superficial. Well, maybe I truly was...I replied messages people sent me based on the pictures they have on their profiles. I mean I couldn't entertain to everyone. But I have to make it clear that I do not reply based on the profile pictures solely, it also depends on the stuff they write in the messages. Like Vance said, what is there to reply to a hi? What about bye?
Cedele! Yummy! No need to use so many cutlery for 2 slices of cake right?
Chocolate Truffle - packed full with chocolaty goodness!
Here here! Wrong focus! Da da...the Ruby Strawberry Cheesecake!
Well, the human eyes are attracted to things that are aesthetically appealing. That forms the initial attraction. If there is chemistry, then it becomes a date. There's much more to a person than just physical look alone really. Think about what if someone who likes to pick his nose and eats his booger (Xiaotian, I know you're going to point at me! Opps...I joke about eating them but I'm seriously going to stick it on your lab coat the next time. 'Cos I haven't gotten rid of the Hi you wrote on mine!) I mean even if someone looks hot and has some cranky habit. It's such a turn off right?
And how does chemistry come about? It comes from learning to appreciate the inner beauty of another person...
I have all along told people that physical appearance is all about dressing and grooming. These are things that could be learnt and not borned with. I don't think I would agree with Daren; I don't think I'm hot but I know that I'm at least presentable. And comparing to the past, I think I look better now. If you don't believe, log on to Friendster and check me out (and have a good laugh with those pictures of course.) We need to learn how to laugh at ourselves at times. Well, about half a year ago, I realized that one of my two upper incisors has a crack. This tooth gave me a lot of problem since it got a serious knock in a fall during dance practice a decade back. I went to NDC and had it examined. The dentist told me that this tooth wouldn't last very long 'cos this crack is likely an indication of a fracture. Well, that tooth would be gone in a few years time. I don't want to be wearing a denture so I guess the next best thing is an implant. But an implant is permanent so I couldn't not shift the position of the implant once it's fixed. So if I wanted to correct my teeth, I have to do braces first before I could have the implant. Well all in all, it's going to cost about $8 000. But phew~, it's not going to be a lump sum payment. I guess I have to come up with the $4 000 I need for the braces first.
There's this person whom I got to know online for not very long. He had been very persistent in asking me how was my exdate like, what we used to talk about, what we used to do, etc. It's really annoying when I got to know that he wanted to know me through the things we did. That's not very sincere in his attempt to make friends. People behave differently in different circumstances. How my exdate felt about me would definitely be different from how he would feel about me if we ever met up. Secondly, the thing he annoyed me was how he refused to let me see his cam when he had already shown me a picture of himself. I prefer to cam chat with someone new 'cos I get to familiarize his face (and no other purpose! Duh!) His reason for refusal was that I haven't got over my exdate. Those were separate issues, weren't they? It didn't feel very coherent and it made me feel that he's hiding something from me! Thirdly, I had no one to have dinner with a few days back. He told me he wouldn't mind having dinner and I gave him my number. He said he'd message me and confirm the time and venue. Well, I waited and waited. Nothing. Later, he told me he lost his mobile phone and couldn't contact me. Oh...what a coincidence. Conclusion: he's really very not sincere. Action: blocked!
Personally, I think that he's a very ugly person. He looked not bad in his picture really (unless that's a picture of someone else.) 'Cos he thought that people judge him based on look. Well, it's not possible that we could not make a first impression based on look but someone who put in excessive efforts to make himself look so good that he lost himself is in fact very ugly no matter how physically appealing he has become.
I made a trip down to Nokia Care Center yesterday. Of course to get my phone fixed 'cos of 5 dead pixels. They came out together overnight in a row. Well, of course they got it fixed for me 'cos it's definitely a manufacturing problem.
I went out with Thad to Southern Ridges a few days back. It rained. Certain parts of the whole walk give magnificent views. How perfect it'd be if I hadn't gone with him but with someone I treasure and who treasures me? He told me how he developed with his current date. It's nice to hear that he's doing fine in his current relationship. But it's funny how he asked about how I thought we could try out again if we were both single. I don't think it'd ever be possible again. Time has changed and so have I. And me? I'm still trying to get contact with Ben - to give our story an end. Or maybe it has already ended...
I'm not seeing anyone lately though there is someone I wanna know better at a personal level. I don't think I'm ready to handle a relationship as yet but I wouldn't mind dating and see how things turn out. Maybe Keltio is right. Forever love is nonexistent. How long is forever? Lifetime? And yet, how long is a lifetime? No one knows. The most important thing I somewhat got to figure is to enjoy the present - together. And respect the other as another being who wants to share his life with you as much as you wanna share your life with him. It's late...I needa be going and opps, sorry for not updating in a while.
Oh yah! It was Chookeat's birthday last week! Happy birthday Chookeat! Another year older...hehe!
This old man...he plays not one but twenty something! Not telling you though...
Reformation in progress...
