Happy 22nd birthday to you Andrew! And soon, we'd have known each other for 2 years. Trust me...time seems to fly like no one's business after you turned 20. I don't get it why too myself! Maybe it's Einstein's Theory of Relativity at work...he kinda thought that size of a being affects his perception of time! Just maybe...
We knew each other after we both broke up with our ex-es. That very first time we met, you were in your number 4 at White Sands waiting your ferry back to Pulau Tekong...you were depressed and I hope you still remember how I tried to cheer you up with that pill box filled with kisses. Now, you've already ORD-ed and you're standing at the start of your career. I'm sorry that I have let Thad came between us. I was very disappointed that time you told me that you were advised to give up on me. 'Cos I thought friends never gave up on each other...
Remember what you gave me for the last Christmas? A personalized card. You pointed out on that our picture on your board was missing. And I kinda knew that the photo was in the card and I do treasure the card a lot. I'm still using the mobile phone pouch you gave me. Remember how we want to stay together if we remain single when we turn old? And remember how we say we'd treat each other to a sumptuous meal when we earn our first ten thousand dollars? I knew yesterday was a bit awkward 'cos I hope to revive our friendship...which I got to realize after I broke up with Thad is much more important than anything else. You're now attached. I'm now attached too. And I hope to share my life with you still...remember: friends forever!
The birthday boy opening his presents with his very nimbly fingers...
Things are getting smooth with Benneth. Very smooth in fact. In my past relationships I'm very used to be the one giving and not taking. Maybe that was my way of 'loving'...and it was seemingly the wrong way 'cos it probably left my poor partner feeling suffocated. Now, I'm trying to give less and learn to take bit by bit...and try to incorporate this love into my life than to portion part of my life for love. It feels much more easier to love...and unusually much simpler! I've been spending a lot of time with Benneth...'cos I enjoy every single moment with him. It feels great...simply having him around. No need to do big things. No need to do special things...just his presence simply makes a great difference. Maybe this is how love should feel...
My heart was jaded and broken. It took me a lot to piece them and plaster them up together again. Yes, I'm afraid that it might be broken again once more. It's probably unsightly and unrecognizable. But that does not forbid me from taking it out and showing it to you...simply because I trust that you would not break it again. I love you...
My friend once asked me why do you love that person. It was a long time ago when I was still with my first ex. I didn't quite know how to reply and so I said I didn't know. And I added: Perhaps it's the feeling he gave me. He shook his head telling me: Sam, that's probably not love. It's a crush. When you truly love someone, that person is irreplaceable and you would try your best to keep him beside you, through thick and thin...
...love is about not getting tired of waking beside the same guy for the rest of your life!
