I think running into you was a bad mistake. Yes, I can't deny I miss you. You know. When I keep everything. But you don't always have to pry open my wound. I did call last night to check if you're back safely. But that doesn't mean I care for you more than a friend. You have Jared. You can't have 2 guys at one time. You know you can love many but you've made a choice. Why should I fight for you? I lost the reason. The reason to fight for you...
Yes, the times we had together was marvelous. The times clubbing together on podium when people refer to us as cute couple. The Ubin trip with the NTU guys and your superman stunt. The White Christmas party and together cooking for the party. The Christmas countdown at Orchard and the 3 roses. The New Year cum First Month Cycling trip and the resolution we made at the back of the airport: it was you who told me that you wanted to come back year after year to renew our relationship. The Valentine's Day we spent together at my place and the pebble you gave me...all of them suddenly don't feel precious to me anymore. Especially the look you gave me that night you french kissed my friend right in front of me. The night I rushed down to the pub when you friend called to tell me you were screwing everyone of them up. That clubbing incident you told my friend to do you know what...
You had been given ample chances. Ample chances to hold me tight and tell me that you do love me, but you have to let me go. You don't need to say sorry for those things you have done now. You don't have to say you didn't cherish me back then...
If it were a month ago, I would have cried and softened up...I have moved on and you have a new boyfriend, so quit saying that I still want us back. Please, we wouldn't be able to move on this way. And sadly to say, I'm learning to love myself more. I'm getting more selfish. 'Cos I don't want to get hurt anymore. And I already have interest in someone else...
...so please just let us stay in the past...
It's a pain that wouldn't last...just hang on!
